EleAMental Podcast
Missing Persons

Missing Persons

September 2, 2021

False alarm, my missing family member turned up after a few days, no need to panic. Didn't stop the family from worrying anyway. You know, a check in to your friends and family to insure that you’re okay is always appreciated. It’s a long/short story. But it did get me thinking about how I have a history of going missing in relationships. I’ve had excuses why, but none I would consider good. More like I inadvertently set a priority list and they were not high on it. At the top of that list? The constantly unravelling drama that was my life. But no longer. Today is a new day and a new me. Now to actually change and seek forgiveness for my carelessness. This is where the real work begins.

 

 

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Things Change

Things Change

August 18, 2021

They do. Having experienced a long period of mental clarity, coming from therapy, medication, and learning, I feel very differently on things I’ve spoken about in the past. This relates to past relationships too. I know we live in a world where it’s not okay to change your mind, but that is so unhealthy. Of course we’re supposed to grow and change based off new information. It’s not a redaction, it’s an addendum. This is why it’s so important to seek treatment for your mental health issues and learn about other disorders to make you a more informed and sensitive friend to those who are neuro-divergent. 

 

 

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Hypothyroidism

Hypothyroidism

August 14, 2021

Hypothyroidism. The culprit behind so many of my health issues. This is the story about how one very small thing can make a huge impact on your life. I’m currently one week in on medication for my very low functioning. The results will astonish you.

 

 

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Butt Of Jokes

Butt Of Jokes

August 5, 2021

For a very long time, I tolerated being the butt of jokes by my friends, or people I perceived to be friends at the time. I’ve never understood the concept of hazing or ribbing people, except as a way to cause hurt. It’s a standard I hold seriously in my life, that I will never inflict that kind of hurt, nor will I ever accept it. When the nature of someones comments works to tear down, you have to ask why.

 

Also on this entry, I talk about the Covid-19 Vaccine and how to engage with those who are untrusting with it. You would be surprised the influence you could have if you have patience.

 

 

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Bezos Shrugged

Bezos Shrugged

July 30, 2021

First off, the title is a nod to the dystopian conservative jerk off novel, so don’t take it too seriously. Ayn Rand would have definitely felt so in awe and deep compassion for the 200+ billionaire titan and all the things he’s done for humanity. Can you hear my eyes rolling through this text? When people like Bezos do the things they do, you’re always going to find some trying to spin it into some sudo self-help, aspirational nonsense. I find it ironic to use someone who crushes the dreams of many to also inspire dreams. If there is anything you should be inspired to do, it is to do better, DREAM BETTER. We all have dreams, but does the cost of your dreams have a negative or positive impact on others. Maybe when we dream, we should use the word “Me” less and “Us” more. Are your dreams selfish in nature? It’s understandable, but if we want to be better, that’s a collective effort and we have to think in those terms. Lets talk about US.

 

 

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Regeneration

Regeneration

July 21, 2021

Never get too attached to The Doctor, you know, the one from Galifrey. Every few years, they have a habit of changing on you. Us humans do that too, though we may keep the body, the mind can’t help being affected by the events of time. I found myself longing for a past version of myself, but earlier this year I stopped doing that. Instead, I decided to check in and see who I am now. The more I did that, the less I ever wanted to go back to former glories. So, let me introduce myself…again.

 

 

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Glorious Purpose

Glorious Purpose

July 15, 2021

The character of Loki has many things you can learn from, but perhaps the idea of having a “glorious purpose” isn’t one of them. Or is it? I was raised to believe that I had a divine purpose and destiny. In my mid 20s, I stopped believing in all of that, but upon further introspection, I think I’ve held on to a bit of the sense. Not that I believe in god or their plans, but it’s interesting I still feel this energy behind the things that I pursue. So what is that if not god? Can a person define their own purpose and also experience that drive that’s been considered exclusive to the faithful?

 

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Cheers!

Cheers!

July 7, 2021

You know those people who hate holidays? If you didn’t before, you do now. Yes, I have become a curmudgeon of sorts in regards to festivities. This wasn’t always the case, but in the course of my 30s, I’ve turned sour on many of the traditions and celebrations I once really looked forward to and enjoyed. In part, disappointments have a share of the blame in this game. Each year only feels like diminishing returns. Until recently, I was pretty set to avoid all of it, including my own birthday, until I had a conversation with my mom. She was like me, but we realized why we’re wrong. You have to celebrate people, hell, you have to celebrate yourself too. If not you, who? But we should want to be there for people, commemorate those special events. It can also just be a reason to come together. After a year of self isolation for all of us, it should make more sense now. Pop the champagne, raise a glass, and salute!   

 

 

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ADHD?

ADHD?

June 30, 2021

I'm currently seeking treatment for ADHD. I haven't seen a psychologist yet, but I will be getting an evaluation in the very near future. I've known for a long time that I wasn't neurotypical, but had no clue that I could possibly have ADHD. I had a vague understanding of it, the usual lack of focus and hyperactivity, but it's much more than that. I'm still learning, though I'm pretty certain I deal with all the myriad of issues that comes with the disorder. Let me take you on a tour of my life and show you why I think I have ADHD and why I'm excited to start medication and treatment.

 

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No 117: Gender Affirming

No 117: Gender Affirming

June 23, 2021

Early last month in May, I started back on gender-affirming medication and care. I had been off my Spironolactone for over a year, hadn’t been on Estrogen for over 4 years. One of the reasons was being unable to afford healthcare, but the thing I didn’t ever talk about was I had been ordering online without a physician’s supervision. You can find a lot of online pharmacies, for a hefty price, willing to issue you a prescription and mail you your meds from foreign pharmacies. Let me be clear, you really, really, REALLY shouldn’t do this. But when you’re desperate like I was, and many others like me, you sometimes do things that you shouldn’t. I never wanted to encourage anyone to follow my path, so I stayed mum about the whole thing. Honestly, I’m lucky nothing detrimental happened. Today though, access to care is a lot easier than it was before. Here is my story from 2011 to 2021 about my history with HRT meds and the challenges in between.

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